Room to Grow June 28, 2010

My biggest holes
I’ve come to see
in the mirror of relationship
between you and me.

And I’m beginning to love
those empty places
No longer wanting others
to fill in the spaces.

Those yawning gaps
of varying degrees
Give me room to grow
to become more me.

The fear of knowing
my deepest self
Replaced with love and truth
the whole of spiritual health.

My apologies, forgiveness
gratitude and love
Pour forth from my soul
on the wings of a dove.

So I’ll think of you always
with a thankful heart
and all the special blessings
that were here from the start.

A Puzzle April 2, 2010

A puzzle your words
they are to me.
Often the same
yet still a mystery.

I’ve picked into colorful pieces
all of our conversations
spending hours with jagged bits
lost in ruminations.

And the big pictures
I’m apt to miss
if I continue to focus
on the fragments like this.

So I spread them on the table
under good light
I bend in concentration
and work to fit them right.

I always start with the frame
but this puzzle has no boundaries
I can’t neatly box it in
With straight edges, smooth and soundly.

There is no lid
to show what I’m trying to make
With so many possibilities
my head begins to ache.

Just tell me what you mean
It’s too hard to make it fit
I’ve studied all night
And I’m ready to quit.

With infinite patience
and kindness to spare
You lay it all out for me
Tidy and square.

Of course, I don’t like the picture
Which is why I couldn’t see
the truths I’m not ready
to have set me free.

One piece at a time
I pull it apart
Arguing each point
I know by heart.

Though now that I’ve viewed it
I can’t erase the scene
I feel change happening slowly
deep inside of me.

Obligations December 22, 2009

If I clear my calendar
Of all obligations
Deadlines and do lists
And even celebrations

Will I stop being hurtled
Through time and space
Passing by at a startling pace.

The clock ticks slower
When there’s nothing to do.
But boredom presses down
A thick, noxious fume.

I find joy in doing
That much is clear
The shift from freedom to duty
That kills the cheer.
Again and again
I end up here.

I know it’s only
My perspective
Forgetting each commitment
Was once an elective.

And always we’re choosing
What path to move along
To join in the races
Or step away from the throng
To fill in the spaces
Or leave time for our song.

Drifting Away December 21, 2009

I love the feeling
As I drift away
After coaxing my consciousness
To quietly lay.

Outwardly expanding
Filling the space
Free to explore
In the other place.

I wonder if it will be like that
When I die.
The final escape
With a long lovely sigh.

Or will I forget
When I come to that day.
And struggle instead
In my mind to stay.

Anemone December 21, 2009

Does the sea anemone dream
Of life beyond the coral reef
Of casting off, taking the leap.

Would it fly through the water
To beauties unseen
Or sink to the bottom
To the end of the dream.

Or does it stay grounded
Guilty for feeling discontent
When surrounded by wonders
So clearly heaven sent.

Which life is the one better lived?

Maybe no thought of the past
Or of the tomorrow
Anchored tight, held fast
Only the tide to follow.

Rocking gently with the breeze
Waiting for whatever drops in from the seas.
Living right here, right now
What else matters anyhow.

Or is it more clever
To seek and endeavor
To go for it all
Every one of life’s treasures

Moving forward in faith
Leaving guilt and fear in the wake
Convinced the plan
Is a life beyond grand.

Not for the anemone
But maybe for man.

On The Brink December 21, 2009

Breakthrough?
Or shutdown?

Patch the breaches
And strengthen the abutments.

Or burst forth, unrestrained
Vibrant and free
But with no guarantee

Breakthrough
or shutdown.

Terrifying equally.